![]() Thank you for all your support these past years. Whoever you are, please know that you're valid, and loved. If you're still reading this, I hope that my captions have helped you in some small way - in the same way that writing them has helped me over the years. I know that for so many others out there it's so much harder. I'm ridiculously lucky to be where I am today - to be able to afford private HRT and to have a supportive family and partner. And sure it's slow and hard sometimes, and there's no magic wand to magically make my body exactly what I want it to be. That escape from reality I used to get by dreaming up a TG scenario and imagining it happening to me. ![]() Like I say, I was happy before - but now it feels like a final puzzle piece has slotted into place. ![]() So I started transitioning last year, and I've honestly never felt happier. And the "trapped in the wrong body" narrative simply does not describe a large number of trans people, myself included. Turns out, that imposter syndrome I'd been feeling? Yep, pretty common. Until a few years ago, when I finally started reading more of other trans people's experiences and realised they were closer to mine than I could have imagined. I didn't feel "trans enough" to seriously entertain transitioning. I was mostly happy, and it wasn't like I hated my body. I still didn't really get it - sure, I was trans and liked feminine stuff, but I didn't feel "trapped in the wrong body". I shuffled my way awkwardly under the trans umbrella, reluctant to label myself as anything in particular. This obviously extended to when I started writing my own - I kept things PG, focusing on all the other aspects of people's transformations.Īnyhow, as the years went on I gained more self-awareness and - more importantly - self-acceptance. I'm also somewhere on the ace spectrum, which meant that any explicit images or sex-based captions simply didn't resonate with me at all. I felt unwarranted guilt and shame when I looked at them, but it didn't stop me from coming back time after time. I didn't know why these captions were interesting to me - only that they were. Back then, I knew little to nothing of trans people - I lacked the language or awareness to even begin to understand who I was. I started this blog 13 years ago, after other people's TG captions captured my imagination. hi! I'm Emily, a transwoman living in the UK. ![]() The long answer is the remainder of this post, and should probably start with a bit of an introduction. So, the obvious question: why am I stopping? The short answer is that captioning no longer holds any interest for me. It will remain here, to be stumbled upon and enjoyed by anyone who finds it useful. I really don't think it will.īefore I go any further, please rest assured that I have no intention of shutting the blog down. And so here I am, writing this so you're not all left wondering if a new caption might miraculously land one day. But this time feels different - it feels final. It's certainly true that I've come and gone over the years as my interest has waxed and waned. Of course, you might read that and think "never say never". I know this isn't what any of you will want to hear, but I believe that my time as a caption author has come to an end.
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